trying not to try

I often look at the past,
And wonder what could have been
But after seeing how much
you care for him
I won't try.

I can't help how I feel
But that doesn't mean
I'll act on every twinge
I won't try

Ever though
It hurts me so
I won't try

I'm happy that you found someone
Who makes you feel good
And you truly care about
And for this reason,
I'll try my best not to try.